guilty .

You must change. Yes! You can do it. Start from today. No more eat everything no more bad habit. Bismillahhrahmanirrahim. Hopefully I will become a great hamba Allah. I really want to change.

Ya Allah, bantulah hambaMu ini.

I'm afraid with all of my sins I've done before. Lately I kinda differ than usual. A bit careless about my prayers. Yes, I did pray everyday but it seems nothing. Empty, yeah I feel empty. Maybe I did it because I have to, ain't I want to. People, they always feel that they're doing right thing but the truth is they always do mistake in their life.

Myself, as normal human. I just can't help myself when something come and interrupt my mind. It's kind of virus. I just don't know how I can get rid of it. Really disturbing and I really hate that. I just want to become as normal person who carry out such a normal life. I'm tired become a loser. I just made a change for this year but it was terrible because I just can't take it. I must promise to myself that I won't do it again.

 Yeah, that's for sure. I have my own words.

This entry would become such an agreement between me and myself.

If that 'thing' happen again, I'll definitely won't forgive myself.

Get it? Okay thanks. :)

p/s: I'm very serious right now and one more thing, b**** punya website :(